Yoga Tuesday again. This will be the last Tuesday of this term that I will be going to yoga classes. Starting next week I will have lab sessions to TA every Tuesday night. We've agreed to move our yoga day to Thursday, but we'll see how that goes. I foresee a lot of missed classes ahead.
And for once in a long time I actually skipped running yesterday. I even planned to go run. The gym is now in full spring term hours, which means that it opens until 10 pm. And because of that I had planned to be in lab until after 7 so I would have time for everything.
Time I did have, energy I did not. I was exhausted by the time I left lab, I just could muster the energy to run. Plus my calves and ankles were sore ( much better now, it really was just muscle soreness), and my plantar fasciitis is getting quite bad ( my foot is hurting right now). I considered it very wise to have skipped gym yesterday. But it also means that my schedule is again completely screwed up and I will probably postpone the training plan by another week.
Not that it matters anymore. Yesterday my friend had confirmed that she will not be running the half marathon we had planned to do. Although she said she would be happy to go with me, I quickly called off the plan too. It's a week before I had to leave for a conference, and right in the middle of the last third of my TA. And I just don't think I could have the time and energy to worry about it. I thought that the cancellation of my running goal would not affect my routine, but apparently it has.
I don't think it's the only reason though. Although I had anticipated that I will all of a sudden become very busy because I'm TAing again this term, I had not factored in how mentally and physically exhausted I would be. And this is ridiculous: it's only the second day of the term and I had not taught any students, graded any papers, or dealt with any problems. So far all I did was attend a TA meeting, a lecture, and a lab prep training session, and I'm already constantly exhausted and overwhelmed. I think part of it was that because time is all of a sudden a commodity I was also trying to squeeze more experiments into certain days as others are increasing becoming unavailable. That combined with the fact that I just don't do well if I have to get up early in the morning, is making me a very unhappy person.
And because of it I fear that my workout routine also has to change to accommodate my new (but temporary) life. I will have to come to terms with not running as much or work out as much. I will also have to be more efficient. If it takes me an hour to run a certain distance, I will just have to shave off time for before and after I go so working out doesn't take up 3 hours of my life that I don't have. And I also need to be careful of my diet since I tend to over eat and eat unhealthily when I'm tired or stressed, and to moderate my fluid intake so I will still drink a lot of water every day but will not have to go pee every 5 minutes when I'm supposed to be doing TA stuff. The peeing part worked pretty well today, but the fluid intake part did not. I couldn't have drunk more than 1.5 liter today, and I already feel dry.
Before I started this week I was already overwhelmed with all the things I will have to do this term, and my response to myself was to just "suck it up." There is just simply no other way. And the motto remains, but I have to figure our how to suck it up smartly or I will completely fall apart in probably every way of my life. I haven't worked out how to do it yet, but I will definitely keeping trying.
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